Synopsis
Filmmaker Cyrus Yoshi Tabar, a first-generation Iranian-Japanese-American, has a photo of his grandparents holding him as an infant. The photo captures his first and last encounter with them. Seeking to understand the fracture in his family, Cyrus embarks on a journey into the dark and nebulous corners of family history. Fragmented and cloudy images of his family speckle his investigation as he talks to his aunt and sister, but discovers that a family’s narrative isn’t linear and that truth is elusive.

About
This film, like it’s subject matter, was extremely nebulous and ever-changing as I was making it. Over the course of it’s production, I was constantly searching and collecting my family's photos and home videos and films, while interviewing family members in an attempt to find facts and truths in our history. Little did I know that this task would prove nearly impossible, and that everyone’s account of the past was different from one another. I started the project with a desire to uncover why there is such a rift in my family, in hopes that this would answer questions I had about my own identity. In the end, I found that it was the quest I took, rather than the terminus,  to connect with my family about our history that had the most impact on me. I realized that certain things might be better off left in the past in order to move forward, to begin anew. 

Filmmaker Bio
Cyrus Yoshi Tabar is an award winning Iranian-Japanese-American filmmaker based in Oakland, California. His films explore what it means to be American through the intricate complexities of family history and ambiguous identities. Growing up at a dinner table where sushi and kebab met macaroni and cheeseburgers, Cyrus now uses cinema to investigate the diverse and dynamic intricacies of first-generation kaleidoscopic American culture.